Hard to believe that it's been 2 years since I had my weight loss surgery.
To date, I've lost 54kg. I think I need to accept the fact that I may never get to my ideal weight of 68kg...a loss of 60kg. I had my final check up with my surgeon earlier this month and he was very pleased with where I am at, but I told him I'm not. I need to take in the fact that I've lost 54kg, but I just can't get my head around that. I consider myself a failure, which I know is stupid, but it's the damn head that sometimes takes control. I probably sounded really ungrateful when I was discussing this with my surgeon and still to this day, I feel really bad about it. I also think that in the 2 years that I've been seeing him for check ups, not once have I thanked him for all that he has done and for talking me into having the sleeve (vs the band) in the first place. Probably glad to see the back of me!
So where to from here? The next step in my journey is to undergo an abdominoplasty (tummy tuck) (http://www.amcdonald.com.au/procedures/abdominoplasty.html) and that is booked for 17 July...3 weeks from today at St John of God Hospital in Geelong (coincidentally, where I was born many moons ago, although back then it was known at Holy Cross Hospital). Am I scared? Of course I am. The procedure takes 4-5 hours and I have no idea how much excess skin the surgeon will remove. Certainly not those last 6kg I want to get rid of LOL. I'll also need to wear a sexy compression garment for 6 weeks for 24/7 for the first week or so. Fun...NOT! That is one reason why I chose to have this in winter instead of summer...could you imagine wearing that for 6 weeks in 40°C temperatures...hell no. This surgery is setting me back just under $10,000 so I hope it's worth it.
Nothing much else to report. Will keep y'all updated on the surgery front when the time comes.
In the coming days/weeks, I'll be posting some before and after photos for comparison...no not of the surgery, not sure you'd want to see my blubber guts and scars etc.