In my case...fact.
I have had concerns for some time now that I may have stretched my sleeve as I have slowly gained weight. Thus the barium swallow last week to assess things.
My fears were confirmed today when I went to see my sleeve surgeon for a five year "check up". I last saw him three years ago and as things were going well, I didn't need to see him again.
Whilst waiting to see him, his receptionist called me and lead me towards the dreaded scales. I was too scared to look exactly how much I have gained. I'm ashamed to admit that I've gained close to 10kg, weighing 84.5kg.
When I had my tummy tuck in 2014, my weight on day of surgery was 73kg. I saw the images of the swallow test and my surgeon said that I have a pouch at the top of my stomach and it's slightly folded over, which he stated is common, but to make sure there's nothing more sinister going on, he's booked me in for a gastroscope, which I will have done on 23 May.
He did outline two options to "fix" things, one being a re-sleeve and the other a bypass, the latter of which I flat out refused.
If I really wanted to, I could get re-sleeved but I'm no longer covered for sleeve surgery on my PHI.
Unfortunately at the moment, my back issues is top priority as I could be facing a spinal fusion but this surgery is an absolute last resort.
I feel like I've failed myself and everyone else but myself more, as I never made it to my goal weight of 68kg. The sleeve is just a tool, we still have to bust our arses and do the hard yards.
My weight was a constant battle pre-sleeve and even more so now to maintain.
Need to get my shit sorted and fix things.